Priorities...

A good friend of mine has been preaching this quote to me for MONTHS now! Got me to thinking......remember my post last year about 'what women want'? Well....being a priority should be added to that list! I think I have finally opened my eyes to this fact actually. For years I have allowed myself to be an option, or thing of convenience....no more! It ends today!
Another thing that should be added to the list is HONESTY. I am sure I speak for most women when I say the truth is always the best option. Why lie? You know she will find out eventually anyways right? For me....I lived in a marriage chock full of lies, so I am trained to expect it! He used to tell me he lied because he didn't want me to be upset about the truth. Well damn....I'm more upset at being lied to...trust me! The truth is always best! If you are in a relationship that you feel the need to lie to your partner, well, you probably shouldn't be in that relationship in the first place.
One more quote to end my sort of disorganized rant : "If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders" ---- so men....and ladies....where is your heart? Be honest with yourself here and I am confident everything else will fall into place.

SHE-art...attempt #1!

So I recently decided I wanted to start an art journal....I happened upon a journal at Michaels that I thought would be perfect, so I bought it! Just a little bit ago....I finished my first page! I had seen this 'She-art' thing a while ago, and wasn't sure what it was. Well...my curiosity turned into a desire to learn! The way I learn new things is to look at examples and try and figure it out....lol! After perusing the internet for a while...the first thing I did was make a rough sketch on a piece of scratch paper, just to see if I was even capable of DRAWING a figure....to my suprise, my very first drawing....not too bad!



So I took this idea, and translated it into ART! (to the best of my abilities that is....) Here is my very first attempt at 'she-art'. No, it is not on a canvas....it is in an art journal. And no, it is not as extravagant as the ones I saw online elsewhere. But...it is MINE! I'm sure next time I will play a little more with different ideas....this one was just my first attempt. What do you think?







So now I want to make more!!! I am happy with how this page turned out...but yeah....I'm anxious to jump in and make more for sure! Maybe next time I won't make her head so big....lol! Thanks for visiting my blog today ;)

so it's Valentines Day.....

....and it started off GREAT! I was flying high! Thinking....this is a GREAT DAY! I went to the gym, did over an hour of cardio, burned a gazillion calories (thinking of that Italian Mac and Cheese I was gonna make for dinner....LOL)....even went and bought flowers for myself

(pretty eh??? i actually had a dream that I should have a dozen red and a dozen pink...so that is what I bought! they smell AMAZING!)
So I get home, put them in water, throw in a load of laundry, and decide to take some time to myself and sit down at my craft table. And then I found it. The letter. Long story short, it made me feel awful. Then, it got worse. and worse. To the point I was highly tempted to dip into the case of beer in the fridge. Then I remembered.....wait! I have xanax! Much less calories! So here I sit in my xanax induced state trying to feel better and reflect on everything.
I did manage to create something today....all I could think of all day were my friends, I wanted so badly for all of them to have a better day than I was having. Thought, if just one of them could call me and tell me about some fabulous romantic thing that happened to them, it would make it all better for me. So I made a friend card today, found a sketch on Waltzing Mouse Sketch Challenge Blog, and went to town....best I could in my state. LOL.


So yeah...that was my Valentine's Day. It is what it is right? Better days are coming....I just have to keep reminding myself. It is just very difficult now.