so it's Valentines Day.....

....and it started off GREAT! I was flying high! Thinking....this is a GREAT DAY! I went to the gym, did over an hour of cardio, burned a gazillion calories (thinking of that Italian Mac and Cheese I was gonna make for dinner....LOL)....even went and bought flowers for myself

(pretty eh??? i actually had a dream that I should have a dozen red and a dozen pink...so that is what I bought! they smell AMAZING!)
So I get home, put them in water, throw in a load of laundry, and decide to take some time to myself and sit down at my craft table. And then I found it. The letter. Long story short, it made me feel awful. Then, it got worse. and worse. To the point I was highly tempted to dip into the case of beer in the fridge. Then I remembered.....wait! I have xanax! Much less calories! So here I sit in my xanax induced state trying to feel better and reflect on everything.
I did manage to create something today....all I could think of all day were my friends, I wanted so badly for all of them to have a better day than I was having. Thought, if just one of them could call me and tell me about some fabulous romantic thing that happened to them, it would make it all better for me. So I made a friend card today, found a sketch on Waltzing Mouse Sketch Challenge Blog, and went to town....best I could in my state. LOL.


So yeah...that was my Valentine's Day. It is what it is right? Better days are coming....I just have to keep reminding myself. It is just very difficult now.