Unravelled!

Wouldn't it be nice to have someone make you come unravelled?! a girl can dream right? :)

real quick like....

see THIS post ;)
I KNEW if I believed, miracles do happen.

oh...and check out my sidebar....that number just keeps a rising on my weight loss widget! woohoo! im so happy! here is a photo i took of myself as i was trying on new clothes for the gym....because all the old ones were falling down! I had to hold them up with safety pins....lol. No more safety pins!


so yeah...no more safety pins, no more TEARS!

Why can't things just be this simple?

Seriously?isn'tlove enough??! I thought it was, but well...
Recent events have caused me to start a random thoughts journal....here is a few of what i wrote down today:
how long does hurt hurt?
Life is too short to spend a single second hurting likethis.
yeah.....i can't write anymore of my thoughts. thought i could, but i can't :( they are too painful.

Be Realistic...

....plan for a Miracle! I know I am ;)
Look at me blogging twice in one WEEK! A small miracle in itself there eh? Another small miracle will occur in the morning when the ship pulls out ....bringing peace, tranquility, and fresh air into my house for an entire month!
I need to add to my resolutions for the year as well....I need to start crafting on a more regular basis! For the past year, all I've done is make stuff for the magazine, I really need to get back into a habit of making OTHER stuff more often. My goal is once a week....to make something just for fun! (if I can actually do this, yes...you guessed it...it will be a miracle!)
I can think of a few other miracles I'm planning....but if I say them out loud, then they won't be miracles when they happen right? What miracles are you planning? Anything good?! Miracles happen every day!!
Thankyou for visiting my blog today!

Girlfriends Matter!

I am pretty sure right now I have some of the very bestest girlfriends in the entire world! You know, the kind of friends who will do ANYTHING to help you out. Friends who will listen when I want to vent and not try to tell me how I am wrong to be upset. Sometimes, I just need to vent. And my girlfriends...they are the best, because they let me. They even agree with me and tell me I'm right, even though sometimes we all know I may not be making the best decisions....it is nice to just have POSITIVE feedback sometimes, you know? My girlfriends are even willing to go out of their way to help me out in time of need...going above and beyond to make sure I am happy. Yep...those are the friends I have. Just want them to know how much I love them, and how blessed I am to have them in my life! Thankyou ladies!!! You all know who you are!

Happy 2012!!

Can I just say I am THRILLED that 2012 has finally arrived??! I feel like I've been waiting a lifetime for this year! I am THAT sure it is going to be a great year :) I actually made a list of resolutions too....and put them on a scrapbook page actually! (unfortunately, you will have to wait until the January issue of SNR comes out to see the page! ) Here is the highlights though...
I resolve to:
1. Lose weight and get healthy! This one, I have already started! I have a widget on my sidebar actually tracking my progress ;) And i've actually made more progress than that says, the widget only is tracking from when I signed up for myfitnesspal.com. I've actually lost about 8lbs more than it says! Gym monday - friday, and watching every single thing I put into my mouth! It is working! I also credit being happy....I truly believe that your mood affects your weight. Being depressed for years I think helped me get so fat to begin with...now that I have a positive happy attitude...the weight is melting off ! Check me out...taken on vacation in Florida last week:


2. Be a better mom to my children. With the pending divorce, they will need me even more than ever. I am making even more time for them and enjoying every second I have with them! They are the most important things in my life!


3. Find my FREEDOM! This is a work in progress...alot of factors involved here. In order to do what is best for the children, I have to be a little more patient here. Patience has never been my strong suit! I am working on it....eventually I will be free, and it will be well worth the wait I am sure!

4. Find the courage to ask for what I want. This one is complicated. I'll just have to leave it at that....I need to find some real courage for thsi one though, trust me!!!

Last year, I resolved to cut out all negativity in my life. That worked out ok....for a while. As the year went on, I realized , I may have cut out some important people in my life. By years end, I reached out to each and every one of them, and have mended most of the relationships. For this, I am greatful. For the ones that didn't accept me back, well that's ok. Maybe it is better this way. I'm not losing any sleep anymore, I did what I could and reached out. That's all I can do. I've made alot of new friends this past year and am thankful for every one of them! I feel like I have a GREAT support system, and have developed some strong relationships that I hope will last a lifetime!

I was gonna vent a little about something too in this post, but think instead I will end with something positive instead. This is a piano piece that I recently had the pleasure of becoming familiar with....it is beautiful. I listen to it almost every day. I close my eyes and even have this silly fantasy that plays out in my head when I listen to it ;) Enjoy! And Happy New Year !!!